Thinking

I've been thinking about several things lately.

John and I went to the Musuem of Art in Philly on Monday.  I felt a tad bit quilty about leaving the girls in daycare but John and I don't have the opportunity to get out alone often so...since I was paying for daycare, might as well keep them in daycare.  After walking around some looking at the beautiful art (tho I have to admit, I don't "get" modern art....my girls can produce "art" that looks like what is being displayed)...we, well, I, turned to the topic that's been on my mind.......the baby topic.

i won't bore you with the details....we went back and forth...discussed our fears.....and I THINK we have decided to have another baby.  Now.....sshhhhh...don't go blabbing this around...please.  We haven't told anyone......and I know alot of people are going to think I'm nuts....especially after my last post. 

Don't get me wrong.....I know it will be a challenge and I am at times, terrified of this decision......but my gut tells me that my family isn't complete.

Now.....unfortunately, this isn't going to be easy.  It's not like I make a decision to get pregant and "poof" get pregnant.  I will need to go back to my reproductive endocronologist (sp?).  I will most likely need IVF.  And John wants to wait until I have a job to even start.  That part doesn't make sense to me.  Why not start now?, while I don't have a job and don't have to worry about being late for work and taking time off for procedures.  But....we'll see....we need to discuss some more.

The other thing I'm seriously thinking about it getting my real estate license.  I met with the mother of a Facebook friend yesterday...she is a high profile real estate agent in the area.  She was so encouraging to me...  Even if I decide NOT to do it full time...to have it under my belt can't hurt can it?  And John has been really encouraging as well.  He really believes I'd be really good at real estate and that it would make me happy.  It brings together my love of houses (if you don't know....I LOVE LOVE LOVE looking at house plans), interior decorating, and ya know, I've watched so much HGTV (House Hunters, Designed to Sell, Property Virgins) that I'm practically an expert.

So, again...please keep the first thing a secret and wish me luck on both!