Acres of Diamonds

I am re-reading Simple Abundance: A Daybook of Comfort and Joy by Sarah Ban Breathnach.  It contains 365 short essays to help people find their joy.  I have read it every day since January 1.

Today's essay is title Acres of Diamonds.  It's based on a motivational speech/essay written by Russell H. Conwell who gave the speech more that six thousand times between 1877 and 1925.

What the author is trying to convey with this message and what Russell H. Conwell was trying to convey almost a century ago is that "within each of us lies a wellspring of abundance and the seeds for opportunity".  Breathnach then poses this question:  If you could do anything in the world, what would it be?

I can't really answer that question.  I've never been able to.  Photograghy?  Maybe.  At one time it was decorating or real estate or...well, I don't know.  That's the problem...I really don't know what the answer to that question is.

Do you know?  For you...do you know what you would do if you could do anything in the world?

Me time.....guilt free

I met with my therapist last night and among other things we discussed "Me" time....more importantly, guilt free "me" time.

Part of what got me in trouble with Hubby before Christmas was the fact that I was annoyed that he sat and watched a football game all afternoon leaving defenseless with G and A and getting nothing done.  And what really annoyed me more than anything was the fact that I would never even think to ask for that kind of time in the middle of weekend day to just sit and do nothing.....

But, the more I think about it....the more I do actually deserve it and NEED it.

Now, I'm not talking every weekend but maybe 1/2 a day or one day a month....I need "ME" time.  Time to do whatever I want.  Go to Home Goods or the quilt store alone or with my mom.  Go to Barnes and Noble and just read.  And I'm sure if I ask for it, I'd get it.

So, what's the problem then you ask?

The problem is the guilt part.  I feel guilty for asking for it.  Hubby never asks for "me" time or quiet time.  Maybe he doesn't need it.

But, ya know what?  I do.  And I'm going to muster up the courage to ask for it.  Then I'm going to do it.  And I'm going to put my phone away.  No texting hubby to find out if he's ok with the girls or if the girls are ok with him.  He's their father and he can handle them.

So, tonight I'm going to ask hubby for two things.  First, I'm going to ask for my cleaning lady back and second I'm going to ask for at least 4 hours once a month...of "me" time.

New Years Resolution

The following are my New Years Resolutions

1. To be a better wife to my husband.
2. To be a better mother to my children
3. To try to give up some of my control issues
4.  To have more fun
5. To read more
6. To sew more
7. To take more pictures
8. To smile more