Wednesday, August 31, 2011

What should this blog be?

I have been thinking about this a lot lately...about what I should do with this blog.  It doesn't get much traffic.  Believe me, I don't expect it to be as popular at Pioneerwoman or Mckmamma or many of the others I read but more than the occasional passerby would be nice.  (sorry if it sounds like I'm whining).

I'm not really sure why I decided to start a blog.  It wasn't to make money..I didn't even know you could make money off of a blog.  I guess it was to write down all the feelings I had about being a woman, a mother, a wife, an employee...etc...things that I couldn't really say out loud to anyone close to me.   Does that make sense?

But, other than being an on-line there really any reason to continue?

Or maybe I should change the blog up a bit...make it about something...more than just my ramblings.

Sewing?  I don't really do enough and I don't feel especially gifted enough in it to write about it.  There are many other bloggers who are better.

Photography?  Same.....

Fashion?  Believe me...I'm no fashion maven. And honestly, there are too many fashion bloggers out there that I really don't understand at all.

Makeup?  Nope.

Hair?  Hell to the No. I continue to Ramble?

Do I add more pictures?  I read once that a blog needs pictures in order to spark interest.  Is that true?

If anyone is reading this...any suggestions?



Thursday, August 25, 2011


I've said it once, and I'm gonna say it again.  I need to make some changes.  Lifestyle changes, home changes, etc.

First and foremost, I need to get my @ss out of bed earlier than I am now.  Mornings are a zoo around our house trying to get showered and dressed and two tired girls up and ready.  I'm getting to work later and later and it's just crazy.

I'd like to fit my workout routine in there as well but since I'm currently hobbled by a strained calf muscle that might put a damper on things.  Plus, I think I have to get used to getting up earlier....let's not do it all at once eh?

Meals.....I need to get better with meal planning.  It might actually get easier with cooler weather.  I, for some odd reason, don't like using the crock pot in the summer time.  Call me odd, I know.  But's been English Muffin Pizza's and Pasta a bit too often for my liking.....

I think a lot of this stems from the disorganization in my house at the moment.  That then leads to or causes or is a catalyst for the feeling of disorganization in my life.  Hopefully, once the basement is done, the house is clean(er) and the clutter all gone, maybe I will feel better.

But I still need to get my @ss out of bed much earlier.  No more pushing the snooze on my alarm clock.

Monday, August 8, 2011

Mom Guilt

My friend Sarah had an extra ticket to see Priscilla Queen of the Desert in NYC for Saturday and invited me to go.  My first reaction was "Hell yeah"...followed by "Um, can I really afford to spend that much time away from the girls and the house and is it really fair to John to leave him with the girls all day like that?".

Yup, that's what I thought.  I second guessed myself for the entire week.  John said it was fine but I still questioned my decision...up until the time I left the house to go to the train station.

There is a lot going on at the house and it was craziness Saturday morning.  Grace got eaten alive by "something" Friday night and her legs were huge welts of painful and itchy bites.  She didn't sleep well.  John didn't sleep well.  The contractors were at the house at 9am to start the drywalling....John was running ethernet cable at the same time.  I was trying to shower, the girls were begging for snacks.  It was crazy and my first instinct was to call Sarah and cancel.

But that wouldn't be fair to Sarah or myself.  Don't I deserve some time to just concentrate on myself?  Of course I do, but I don't take it often.

I can easily send my husband away on a three day golfing trip, but I can't seem to allow myself time away from my husband, or my children, or my house.

Why is that?  Why do I have such a hard time allowing myself time to enjoy other things?

Do you find it difficult to take time away from your family and enjoy some "me" time?